As I’m working on this post, I have my leg propped up and am icing my knee. My body is sore and my calves are killing me but I couldn’t be happier with how ballet class went today. It’s almost as if the moment I walked into the dance studio, everything I had learned in my years of training was re-awakened…
If I were to assess my performance in class, I would say that “my ankles are weak (I was shaking so much whenever I had to hold a position in releve), my left hamstring is still a bit underdeveloped (I could barely hold my leg and foot up to my knee in passe turns), I’ve lost alot of inner thigh strength (hello non-existent turn out), my port de bras are no where near where they used to be and I’m just overall, slow…
There was also a little moment where I freaked out a bit inside my mind right before petit and grand allegro because landing incorrectly from a jump while dancing was how I had torn my ACL in the first place … But I got over it quick and let me body’s muscle memory take over.By literally taking a leap of faith, I made it through grand jetes without dying and that is an accomplishment in itself.
Overall, I was no where near as bad as I thought I would be… From the plies and tendus to degages and grand battements, my mind understood what my body needed to do as far as my sense of alignment, space and musicality. So now my focus will be on getting my body’s strength and flexibility back to the level where my execution of movement can match my knowledge of the technique.
It’s going to be a long process to get back to dancing at the level I would like… But now that I’ve gotten over my fears and finally taken a dang ballet class, everything seems that much more possible :)
^^^What the dining area currently looks like in my apartment … Charles surprised me with the most gorgeous bouquet of peach roses today in celebration of me taking a dance class! He’s the best <3
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